school crisis.

I have MAJOR school crisis.

Yes, I do. You have zero idea.

First off, let me start off with my classes for next year. I got into geometry. Yaaay, haha, whatever. I passed that class easily, it really wasn't a surprise for me. Or anyone. Well, DUH, everyone got accepted to Geometry. But then here comes the gay stuff. I DIDN'T GET INTO ENGLISH I HONORS! I was so mad. I didn't know that my scores were high, but weren't high enough. I wanted to get as many high school credit as possible, but noooo. I think it was my PACT scores, but idk. It made me so mad. I'd have to work harder, & I know could do it. I didn't get into French I either, just because I didn't make it into English I. I know, wtf right. It's stupid. It's fucked up. I'll override into those classes next year. idc if I sound selfish or stuck-up, but school's s00per important to me, & I'm not gonna let myself be in English Gifted & Talented when I have a chance to get into English I.

And next... I have major crush crisis.

All of my crushes are either crushing on my besties, or my besties are crushing on them, too. I can't blame them, & I don't control that, but still. It's depressing! You kept having these thoughts that if the guy would ask me out, & I'd have to choose either my bestie or the guy. Or if the guy asked my friend out. UURRRGGHHH! & I just found out today that Joseph likes Kelly, one of my besties. I admit, they'd really make a cute couple, & I really didn't mind that, cuz I don't want him that bad. What makes steams coming out of my ears is that they'd always brag about it, tease her about it, etc. I'd choose Kelly over Joseph, really, but it still hurts. You have no idea how much the pain is when your best friend likes your crush. I'm trying to get over it, & I'm doing great with it, but still. The pain is not wounded yet.

But of course, I like other guys, too. But I know I have zero chance with them, or maybe very little. They're really nice to me, but idk. They seem like they're more interested with preppy, girly, stuck-up, wrinkly, wear-too-much-makeup, skinny as a stick, unathletic-except-for-cheerleading girls that straightens or curls their hair everyday that their natural hair is literally fried. Lykeseriously, it's not even funny. idk why guys are like that. They're so artificial, both the guys & the girls. I'm so glad I was raised in an environment that is unlike theirs, cuz luckily I have no wrinkles, my face is clean enough that I don't need any cover-up, my hair is naturally straight, & I'm just a lazy person. To me, putting makeup on everyday & cleaning my face everyday is just stupid. & it's too much work. I can't help it that I'm so lazy! But I'm glad I am, cuz I really don't feel like waking up early every morning just to cover my real face & gain wrinkles. YEWWWW.

Anywayy... back to the topic. Those guys are the ones who like these girls. They'd rather go out with girls who wear "masks" everyday than the ones who just show their inner, true self. I've never been a person I'm not; I always act like myself. I never try to hide anything. But all these things just give me more guy friends. I guess they think I'm really nice, easy to talk to, laid-back, funny, blah blah blah... & they think I'm more of a friend-type. idk if that's a good thing or not. Is it? You tell me.

idk. Maybe right now I'm just a girl who has a lot of guy friends, & no boyfriend yet. I just get along with them easily, & they're really nice to me, too. Maybe right now I just want to be friends with my crushes, & not ready to have a boyfriend yet. idk. I really don't want to have a boyfriend too fast, cuz from my previous experience, we were better off friends. I'll just wait for them, as I've always been. I don't wanna take a chance with this; I guess I'm still not ready yet.

peace & luv,

RIZZYFACEEEE .



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Oh whee! It's raining maann!.

Oh whee! It's raining maann!.

hahaa. Yesyesyes... it rained again. I went outside just now, && it's crippling. idk if you'd call that rain or not. hehehee.

Well anyways... I just found out today that Hollister's having like a HUGE sale. Well, to me it is. The polo shirts for my school uniform is now $9.99! AWESOME! They were about $24.50 before. I didn't have any problems with that, but my mom does. She thinks a polo shirt with a price higher that $20 is expensive, considering Aeropostale sold it for the same price, but buy one get one free... I think. idk!

It is so not fair. Yesterday, I asked my mom if I could get some new jeans. I've grown, && our dryer shrinks my favorite jeans, so now it's like SUPER TIGHT. She asked where I want to get it [the jeans], I was thinking of A&F or Hollister, since they have that washed, flared, relaxed, beachy-type jeans that I like. But since she was kind of short on money, I just said I don't care.

So we went to Cato's, but it turned out that she was the one that shopped! I got these cute black ballet flats, but that's it. It's so not fair. Of course she has a lot of clothes && stuff because she's all grown up, but I don't cuz I'm still growing!

gahh. Live isn't fair. Today she went to her friend's house, &amp;& now she's at my neighbors, "partying".

urggghh. Whatevs. -__-